Day 1

Life has been tough lately. I desperately need to share my story because I know so many people around me are going through the same thing. Waiting.

Adam and I had the amazing opportunity to work with the youth of a new church in Winchester from January 2011-June 2012. Never in my life did I know my heart could hold so much love. The teens in the youth group had honestly become our kids... I would have (and still would) lay down my life for any of them. As Adam and I heard their stories... struggles... we knew God had placed us there for a reason... we had planned to stay for many years and watch the youngest graduate from high school. But, in January of 2012 after an AMAZING retreat God started tugging at our hearts... He was asking us to walk away...
Our hearts broke.
How could we leave our family?
And where did God want us to go?

In January of 2008 God ignited a passion in Adam and I for Hagerstown, Maryland. We knew someday God would lead us to Hagerstown, but we had no idea when. From January 2012-June 2012 God began reignited that passion. Adam and I feel that Hagerstown is where he'll be leading us next... but we don't know when or how. The past year (almost) has been a CONSTANT waiting period for Adam and I and constant struggle financially and emotionally... I cannot tell you how my heart aches to be in Hagerstown doing what I know God has promised us. I am realizing now that God has kept us on hold because he wanted our hearts to be in the right place. After a talk with Adam this morning about the election (strange enough) I am realizing my attitude is changing and I now love the people in Maryland even more. I have honestly been bitter and at points depressed waiting for God to open the doors, but now I know that we will go to Hagerstown when the time is right. My heart feels light. I have let go of my bitterness and anger. Now all that I feel is love and compassion for those I am supposed to develop relationships with in the future... because I know that the biggest and deepest cry of our nation is for LOVE... People who love people...

Today is Day 1 of my soul's restoration. I simply cannot wait to see what God has in store... I am ready to be used for His glory and LOVE like I never have before...